Things You Don't Know.

If you really knew me, you would know that I am obsessed with notebooks.

That I am afraid of the dark, and that I cannot stand being alone.

If you really knew me, you'd know that every little thing means something.

If you really knew me, you would know what time means.

You'd know that I cannot complete the day without checking the mailbox,

and that I have saved every letter I have ever received.

If you really knew me, you'd know I cannot go anywhere without my iPod.

You'd know that I always have hated Barbies and the color pink.

You'd know I am afraid of the balloons at car dealerships, that I refuse to eat anything that comes from the sea, and that if I had it my way, I would sleep. All day.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I do not cry in public.

That my pillow is the only one that sees me cry. Frequently.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I spend unhealthy amounts of time in my bedroom, and when I am sad or scared, I hide on the roof or in my closet underneath the clothes.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I do not trust anyone.

You'd know I have random dance parties by myself. All the time.

You'd know I beat every level of Angry Birds. With three stars.

If you really knew me, you'd know that I hate mirrors,

but I do love rainbows, rain, and stars in the sky.

If you really knew me, you'd know I write way too much about pointless things.

You would know that what I say is true, and that I don't know any other way to say it.

The Road Not Taken.

Two roads diverged in a yellow wood,
And sorry I could not travel both
And be one traveler, long I stood
And looked down one as far as I could
To where it bent in the undergrowth;

Then took the other, as just as fair,
And having perhaps the better claim,
Because it was grassy and wanted wear;
Though as for that the passing there
Had worn them really about the same,

And both that morning equally lay
In leaves no step had trodden black.
Oh, I kept the first for another day!
Yet knowing how way leads on to way,
I doubted if I should ever come back.

I shall be telling this with a sigh
Somewhere ages and ages hence:
Two roads diverged in a wood, and I--
I took the one less traveled by,
And that has made all the difference.

Who doesn't want life to be so easy as to only have to 

choose between two paths that are quite different? 

I wish life was like this. Instead, life seems

like there are millions of paths, all looking about the same. 

Who knows which one to take when they all look the same?

This poem makes it look so easy. Makes choices seem like 

a piece of cake. Maybe they are for some people, but for me, 

seeing life like this makes me jealous.

My Journey.

Ordinary World: Abigail is a fifth grade girl, who goes to school every day. She has been doing the same thing her whole life, and nothing much has changed between the years. She is beginning to get sick of school, and kind of wants to be done.

Call: One day a few weeks after school starts, a new boy named Bobby comes into her class. He moved from Rhode Island a few days ago, and doesn't know anyone. Bobby is really cute, and he actually talks to Abigail.

Refusal: All of the other girls in Abigail's class think Bobby is cute. Why would he think she is cute over the popular girls?

Meeting with the Mentor: Abigail's teacher talks about how no one should feel like they mean any less than any other person in the class. If this is true, why wouldn't Bobby like Abigail?

Crossing the Threshold: Abigail starts talking to Bobby, and they start to become friends. They play at recess, and even work as partners sometimes in class.

Tests, Allies, Enemies: Abigail notices that all of the other girls want to be Bobby's partner, and that she isn't invited to play at recess when he plays with them.

Approach: Abigail has one friend in class, Sarah, who realizes she likes Bobby. Sarah helps to convince Abigail to not give up. No matter what.

Ordeal: Bobby started spending a lot of time with one of the popular girls at recess. He doesn't even seem to notice Abigail any more, and he never asks anyone else to be partners in class.

Reward: One day, the girl gets mad at Bobby, and he realizes he didn't like her after all. Bobby starts asking Abigail a lot more to be his partner, and plays with her more at recess.

The Road Back: Abigail and Bobby become even better friends than they were before. He spends more time at recess with her, and they have lots of fun.

Resurrection: One of the popular girls starts making fun of the fact that Bobby hangs out with Abigail, because she is not popular. Both Abigail and Bobby are hurt.

Return with Elixir: Bobby tells Sarah he likes her, and Abigail tells him the same. They are no longer embarrassed to be together, and they are great friends.

Hero: Bobby, because he does not let Abigail be embarrassed by the popular girls.

Mentor: Sarah and the teacher, who both help Abigail to see that she is worth something.

Threshold Guardian, Herald, Shapeshifter: All of the other girls in Abigail's class, who also like Bobby.

Shadow: The one popular girl Bobby starts spending more time with.

Trickster: The popular girl that makes fun of Bobby near the end.

For You.

This is for you.
This is for the broken hearted. The broken spirited. Who don't know what
to do with their lives anymore. This is for the guy who works three jobs. Both
day and night. For the dad who works his butt off and still can't pay for Christmas.

Keep Going.

This is for the girl that is hopelessly in love with the popular kid. Even though she
knows she will never get him. This is for the kid who wants to move out and move on.
And never look back. This is for the 24 year old that is still VL and fine with it. For the
girl that moved her senior year, and can't make friends.

Keep Going.

This is for the kids that go unnoticed. This is for the husband who spends all of his time
trying to make his wife happy, but nothing seems to work. This is for the people that
want to give up, but still keep pushing. This is for the little girl that grew up believing
in fairy tales, and no matter how many times she is broken, she will not give up on
the dream of 'one day'.
 
Keep Going.

This is for the geniuses that no one seems to understand.  This is for the people
that smile even though they have no reason to. This is for the people that don't
care. This is for the girl who can't find where she belongs. To the boy who never
really has been able to play sports. This is for the kid who can't get an A in school.
Who is treated like he is stupid. Even though he spends hours every day studying.

This is for you.
This is the hope.
The hope that one day things will change.
But no matter what. No matter where life takes you.
Keep going.

I Keep Forgetting.

I keep forgetting to clean my room.

No matter how many times I am told.

It is much like doing my homework, or anything else I don't feel like doing. I avoid it.

But I will get it done sometime. On my own terms. 

Although it has never happened before.

I continue hoping one day it will. One day I will have enough time to do everything I don't want to do. 

After I do everything I want to of course.

I am sick of being bossed around to do something that is not important to me.

When will I be able to make my own decisions?

When will I own myself?

Maybe when I turn eighteen. Or move away to college. But who knows.

I am sorry I cannot be perfect. I am sorry I continually procrastinate. And never get good enough grades because I do not try hard enough.

One day, I will get it all done. One day I will clean my room. But not today, I am sorry.

I will ignore the askings once again. And it will stay a mess.

Because that is the way I like it.

And I am sorry, but tonight is not the last time you will see the light. On past two in the morning.

Because I like being up that early. Doing things I should have done earlier.

Tangled.

Ordinary World: Rapunzel lives with her evil "mother" Gothel in a tower deep in the forest. She has never been into the outside world, because Gothel decides it is safer for her to stay inside. Rapunzel lives her days dreaming of the world outside the tower.
Call to Adventure: Rapunzel is quickly coming to her sixteenth birthday, on which floating lights will fill the sky, as they have on her birthday in previous years. She wants to see these lights up close, but has never been given the chance.
Refusal of Call: One day, a thief named Flinn Rider climbs the walls of the tower, and is taken captive by Rapunzel. She tells him she will let him go and give him his crown back if he will take her to see the lights. Although she is eager at first, she soon becomes scared and wants to return home.
Meeting with the Mentor: Flinn Rider has to convince Rapunzel to continue on her journey, and keeps her safe with him throughout the journey.

Crossing the Threshold: Rapunzel has to climb out of the tower for the first time in her life. At first she is hesitant, but she quickly forgets her fear for a while.
Tests, Allies, and Enemies: Rapunzel is tested when she chooses to trust Flinn Rider to take her to see the lights. She is also tested when she disobeys her mother's rule to "never leave the tower". She quickly becomes friends with Maximus the horse, and also the men at "The Ugly Duckling", who help her throughout the story. Her enemies are Mother Gothel, and also the two men after Flinn Rider.
Approach: Wicked Mother Gothel tricks Rapunzel into thinking Flinn Rider only wanted the crown, and did not care about her at all. She convinces Rapunzel to come back to live with her in the tower.
Ordeal: Rapunzel fell in love with Flinn Rider, and now she regrets everything because he left her for a crown. She now realizes that what Mother Gothel said about the world being a horrible place is true.
Reward: Rapunzel realizes that she is princess of the kingdom, and Mother Gothel kidnapped her as a child. As the story is revealed to Rapunzel, she realized everything her mother has said was a lie.
The Road Back: Though Rapunzel is trapped in the tower once more, she now knows the truth, and wants to be free. She is finally starting to fight back.
Resurrection:When Flinn Rider comes to save Rapunzel, he gives up his life, or she must stay in the castle forever. He cuts her hair so that she might be free of Mother Gothel, and he dies.
Return with Elixir: Because of Rapunzel's magical powers, her tears are able to bring Flinn Rider back to life. They get married in the kingdom, and live happily ever after.

Stuck.

Lucy's life was boring. It wasn't that nothing happened. Because it did.

She woke up every day at 6. She went to school every day at 7.

She did her homework after school every day until 6.

She had dinner after homework, watched t.v. for a few hours, then went to bed.

Life repeated the next day. Always the same. It wasn't horrible.

But it never changed. It was stuck. In a cycle that couldn't be broken.

Sure, she could skip doing her homework, but what would that do?

Give her bad grades? She could miss school. Which would also ruin her grades.

Lucy wasn't really known at school. She was quiet.

Even though she had so much to say, she wasn't known as the type that would speak out.

And she found out soon enough that you can't really change a reputation.

Especially after being stuck in the same place for your whole life.

She didn't play sports. She was good at them, she just wasn't known as the type that would.

But everything changed that one day in October.

Lucy was told by her parents that they were moving.

Far away from the place she had lived her whole entire life.

Questions:
Will Lucy become someone different?
What will moving do to her?
Does Lucy have anything to lose?